I am the child I once was – alone and lonely and defenseless easy prey hungry for love and affection and protection finding instead lust and abuse innocence and purity stripped away will subdued by fear voice silenced by shame. I am the teenager who emerged – alone and lonely and angry rebellious hungry for love and affection and protection finding instead lust and heartache demanding my own angry will be done building impenetrable walls to hide the shame inside fleeing to self-destruction. I am the adult scarred by life – alone and lonely and abandoned surrounded by my own failure and sin and the pain of those I love shame and fear lust and anger walls and self-destruction. God the Father takes the child into His arms with Steadfast Love, Never-ending; He hides me like the mother hen gathering her chicks under her wings. The Sovereign LORD wrestles the angry teenager; He promises vengeance on my attackers. Jesus my Savior comes to scarred adult with His own scarred hands and feet, Having drunk the cup of God’s wrath in my place, Taking my sin and shame. Creator God walks through my walls, Bringing healing to my wounded heart, Peace to my soul. He is Parent and King and Husband, Who will never leave or abandon, Who invites me to abide with Him forever. ©Rebecca A Givens, 12/15/2017
this is beautifully, honestly written, and while it’s so hard to read, i appreciate so much the perspective as you’ve grown through these experiences.
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A friend described it as disturbing and comforting at the same time… pretty much sums up my life. God is good.
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